Life's meant for better things. Better than having to worry about life itself. Worrying how your life will pan out or will you ever be where you so wanted to be all your life.
Sounds pessimistic, devoid of hope. But sometimes situation seems to overpower you. Make you feel small, helpless. You feel completely stripped of all your senses, thoughts. You feel vulnerable. Meaningless words hurt. You wish no one saw you, no one knew you. You wish you could run away from all this, but you know this is it. This is your life. More you wallow in your pain, tougher it gets. You wish someone pulled you out of this puddle, but no one does. No one can. And no matter how hard you try, you can't seem to get a grip of things.
I don't want to feel this ways. Ever again. Never want to have the sense of defeat, worthlessness. I know winning isn't all. You win some, you lose some. But feeling defeated, that's ugly.
But then, wanting and wishing ain't the way out either...