I am a walking Contradiction.
All the pain we inflict on ourselves has its roots in unfulfilled dreams..
You can't keep waiting for your life to start. This is it. This is your life... Live it the way you want to..
Hope is the opium of Man.

Built and Re-built like a Tank..

My laptop is about to turn 5, which is like centuries in the digital world. It has seen Windows XP being run on it like Windows Server (didnt shut if off for weeks), Gentoo compiled on it for 4 consecutive days and then removed the next because the power controls wouldn't work, and finally settling on to the breezy Windows 7.
In the meantime, it has broken down, in bits, and been resurrected umpteen number of times. Here's a snapshot:
  1. Mother Board changed Once (it hadn't failed... Only God knows why they changed it)
  2. Hard Drive changed Twice (just to add storage, no failures ever)
  3. RAM size Tripled (just for speed)
  4. CD Drive changed Once
  5. LCD Screen changed Once
  6. Hinge changed Once
  7. Heat Sink changed Thrice
  8. Battery changed Twice
  9. Key Board changed Once 
  10. Adaptor changed Once 
So to sum it up, apart from the WiFi card and the casing, nothing in my machine is what it came with. And yet it does everything I need like a workhorse. Can't imagine my life without it.
Dear Laptop, you are deeply cherished...

What's your value?

There are those who add value. And there are those who create value. Which group do you belong to? Which group do you want to belong to? Try finding the honest answer to these questions. It might help you in understanding your inner desires better.

Travel Blog...

I have always wanted to make a travel blog and regularly update it too... Make we did, and design she did. But never wrote a single post about travel on it. I accept I am ashamed. Deeply so...
This is the blog:
I wish I don't let myself down again...


Jaane kitne dinon se kuch likha nahi . Na tumhare liye, na khud hi ke liye...
Jaane kitni baar mann mein kuch aaya, par jehan mein hi rehne diya. Na tumse zikr kiya, na hi kagaz pe baya'n kiya.
'Poetic' nahi sound kar raha hoga shayad. Ya laga hoga aisa hi kuch to likha tha kabhi tumhare liye..
Lagta hai jaise mere andar ka 'poet' kho gaya ho kahin. Kabhi tha bhi ke nahi? Udhar to nahi maanga tha kisi ajnabi se?
Aaj jab likhne baitha hoon to phir shabd dhokha de gaye hain. Ya shayad 'challenge' kar rahe hain mujhe kuch naya kehne ko.
Yahin kahin chupe baithe honge aas lagaye. Kuch 'ideas' aur kuch 'words'. Ek doosre ki talash mein...
Some things are just not meant to be... Sometimes its wiser to let go... Even if it hurts, hurts beyond comprehension. Sometimes, its okay to say "I quit." I should have done that years ago... Was it hope, or was it fear of hurt that kept me trudging? I don't know. Probably both...

But some battles can't be won, no matter how hard you try. For you don't have the right tools. No one does. Sometimes accepting defeat is the bravest thing to do.